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(Prose) once Qinghe: shrimp

There are vendors selling shrimp on the road facing the street, probably the shrimp people, wearing rain pants, fluffy hair, covered with dust.Piece of plastic sheeting spread on the ground, jump small shrimp piled up, flashing silver, in order to keep it fresh, not from time to time will sprinkle clean water shrimp heap.  Shrimp, grown to the pond and lake has texture with glass, crystal clear, little, three, four centimeters in length.See this, often buy some to take home, picking out doping in the grass shrimp segment and impurities, dig clean, put a fried egg fried, or fried with a fried, nutrient-rich, distinctive flavor.  See hawkers selling shrimp, shallots to remember the teenage years, it was the sixties and seventies of the last century, the food is poor and difficult period of life.  At that time, Jinan Xiaoqing, although there have been some muddy, but not yet completely contaminated.Black Tiger from Baotu Springs Springs overflow and spring, after the collection of large near Lake, number of ditches along the north stream, Ganlie clear, Xuaner name, happily injection Xiaoqinghe.Because of the higher-lying ditch, rushing spring water trickles on the shore bluestone base’s gate, splashes of white foam on the water is rich in oxygen, attracted a large number of fish together, carefree breathing , ran up and down, sparking a piece of corrugated.  Xiaoqing also has shrimp, large shrimp, found only, where the water is relatively clear in the vicinity of the upstream gate five willow.Shrimp a bundle of long, slender as peeing green color, transparent shell, crab claws, stiff, shrimp body can be seen clearly in the lines, in particular solid shrimp, fried later, bright red color, a trace of attractive sheen.Ditches on both sides of rivers and ponds, is a supplementary source Xiaoqing, or springs in Jinan, collection, or water seepage volume of the Yellow River, water quality, weed rich, rich in organic matter and plankton, a large number of fish conservation, river shrimp is everywhere, people often see shrimp.  I am also one of shrimp people, that time was a teenager, teens.  Because shrimp species, large and small, shrimp There are several ways to use the tools also have their own characteristics.  Deceive shrimp, it is the easiest way.  First of all, it is to produce deceive shrimp nets, very simple.At that time, unlike now, to the market to buy a swindle shrimp cage on the line, they are short, have to do it yourself.To find a little rough wire, bent into a circle about one meter, then firmly, to find an eye plastic screens or cloth masks and the like, suture on hoops, this is a swindle shrimp nets.And then find a one-meter long pole, strong kind, with three strings of about one meter, equidistant tied to the network side of the hoop shrimp, and then plug in the ends of the sticks, shrimp deceive net will do the work.  Muddy little river shrimp, because it is difficult to survive.Xiaoqing River North, with many of the Bay pond, the water quality is especially good.Bay pond that is both local farmers Outian, but also fish ponds, also can be used as reservoirs.Not far away now Alexandra Road west, there is a huge pond, there are several acres, deep inside the fish in groups, the leaves dense, people can be seen fishing day.Connected to a creek pond, nestled in the tall reeds and willow trees low child, the wriggling toward Xiaoqing.We affectionately call it Grand Bay, and that is our childhood swim, catch fish and play in the park, leaving us countless Sentimental teenage years.  Grand Bay, you can catch fish, shrimp is the best place to deceive.In early autumn Sunday morning, together with small hair, or a person, expectant mood, wore warm sunshine along the south coast westward to the Xiaoqing.In the last owner of the bridge which is now the Alexandra Bridge north, go to the north shore, west, along the river is Jinan Kitayama stone fortified the dam, there is a mile long enough.Dam along the narrow trail, then west, vision suddenly see the light up everywhere are vast farmlands and wetlands.Maturing rice, the heavy head low, slightly in the autumn, the cheerful heaving, glowing golden waves, a Olga.  Near the small gate, covered with one high reeds along the creek trail to the north, it is the Grand Bay.  Autumn Grand Bay, forest, tall, lush lotus leaf lotus leaf, the Grand Bay was full cover, revealing the deep green.White egrets, carrying a foot tall in the shallows, his eyes stared fish in the water, from time to time attack.Pretty wild ducks, neck and head with a green feather, “quack, quack,” cried, draw a circle on the water water marks.There Ji Ling kingfisher, standing nervously on the edge of the Gulf of dry willow, comb get the feathers, warily patrolled the water.The most attractive is floating in the water water chicken, a small figure, brown and yellow, “Goo, goo” sounds, rapid and high-pitched, across the lake, drifting into deep clear sky.  Grand Bay’s north shore, is the side of the slope, shallow water, the leaves are less, just to deceive shrimp.Find a Jacuzzi the bay side, put a few brought sheep bones in the mesh, and then, to the next willow, branches off a stick-shaped, net for supporting the wood, the lush plants interstices, slowly net into the water, you can deceive shrimp.In order to avoid loess slope dirty clothes, you can readily pinch a lotus leaf, spread under the Ding, it has become cushions.  Grand Bay water is turquoise blue, clear and deep.Swimming fish, also crept shrimp, because smell the fragrance of the bones gradually gathered around the net.Hold your breath, see a few large shrimp into the net, black figure, like an elf only.Slowly lift the net, yeah, just do several gathered in the middle of the net sinking, struggling to jump.Quickly caught shrimp, into the string bag, then carefully string bag and then into the water, the top-line rope tied a stick, inserted in the bay along, reliable.  Re nets into the water, and then was quietly waiting.As long as patience, every time do not mention net fall, and occasionally there will be twelve small fish into the net, but too small.Must be a lot of concentration, his eyes staring at the water, as long as the network with a few shrimp, it is necessary to lift immediately, otherwise the shrimp children who will be cruising to the external network.Repeat this operation, put net, catching shrimp, lift net, catching shrimp, hearts filled with joy and happiness harvest, because the harvest represents the improvement lunch or dinner, no longer just a pickle.  Good luck, you can catch a morning two, thirty.It is mature shrimp season, there are only twenty pound, can be filled with a dozen.Back home, some of the shrimp still alive, turning the body, struggling, into a wash basin enamel, immediately happily swim.That’s, in oil and salt, no seasoning, but how do all delicious.The shrimp wash, under the pot, put a little salt and cook, on the line.It was really delicious, mouthful of freshwater fishes, eat once, never forget.  Catch shrimp is a deliberate operation, is incidental harvest.Normally, mainly fishing with lift net fishing and the sea, or the harpoon, the most commonly used is the net, the only way people are able to eat the whole family.Generally along the Xiaoqing River towards the west, there is sparsely populated, and has a large number of the flow of this river of living water.Xiaoqing River where the fish too much, variety, grass carp, carp, crucian carp, silver carp fat head, as well as ferocious snakehead, covered with mucus yellow and black catfish, and sometimes hairy, especially a large one enough to have half a catty.  Also shrimp fishing, that is when there is no swindle of shrimp nets.Shrimp fishing quite simple, with respect to fishing, and even much more easier, there is a small earthworm on the line.First, is the production of hooks, with a pin, bent into the shape of hooks, smaller, to find a thin bamboo pole, then take the piece of cotton string from home, it.Of course, it is best nylon rope, strong, but then there is no.Shrimp fishing, can only go to Grand Bay, Xiaoqing was not, because the river was too muddy.Or to the north bank of the small clearing, ditch south of the years, there have clear water, as well as bushy plants, Lumphini Park shrimp and plankton life.Sometimes small fish to be caught, and that some shallow-water fish, channeling silver carp and crucian carp like son.  To have a rich harvest, only rake shrimp.However, because the rake is too long and heavy, require strength, children did very difficult.  Shrimp rake, rake is yet to grow into the shrimp, as people living in the weeds, we call grass shrimp.Autumn walked mature footsteps came, in ditches, in rivers and ponds, is also the breeding ground for shrimp when the river burst.Shrimp rake shape filled with beauty, a long wooden handle, a half-moon front end of the fixed frame of mind, about fifty centimeters, and the timber is fixed by the two half-moon wooden frame wood, and fine mesh net it is tied to the wooden frame of the half-moon front portion.When used, the shrimp rake the shore toward the river, then pulled to the arms, if there are shrimp, they rake in a net rake.There are some who rake shrimp, in order to increase the range and scope of the rake shrimp, but also to a rope, and more so you can throw some distance ahead on the wooden end of the bolt, scope rake shrimp correspondingly increased.  We can not rake in the Xiaoqing River in shrimp, full of mud, no water plants, and water turbidity.Only tributary streams gurgling in the ditch water gracefully, in the lotus pond near the south bank of the North Park, North Shore criss-crossing the Bay.A rake down, slowly pulled up, the network is crowded yard, jump shrimp, and then carefully put the shrimp incorporated into portable bucket.  May be the limitations of the times, or else the concept of the problem, it may not have the time, though poor, although malnutrition, when the people, for the fish in the river is not very interested in.You can see the river group of a group of carp and silver carp sub-channeling, looked up, breathing in hard, dense mass, that is, very few people catch.  Although very hard, but the rake is considerable achievements shrimp.A few hours, you can harvest good kilos, you can eat a few days.Just rake to pick up the shrimp is very troublesome, it is necessary to pick out the roots and plants, as well as some of doping in shrimp wriggling aquatic larvae.In cooking when cooking, put a little salt in the shrimp, then mixed with a bit of flour, an egg or a put, Guo Lifang a little oil, fry, became red shrimp cake, crisp and delicious.Now some of the restaurant, there is still a specialty, “pancakes with shrimp”, with fried, exciting moment, but also accompanied by onion adorned, special delicious.  But eating, be careful, it might, hard, sharp front-end hook nose shrimp, put the tongue, cheeks or tie bleeding, pain.

(New Year special) New Year’s Eve celebration of childhood

Each season has its own unique flavor, the taste of the most unique winter than the “festive”.Mention “New Year” festive childhood always quickly filled nose, accidentally, actually seems to dip too thick mouthful that are full of firecrackers taste and smell of candy between breathing.Dim, as if returned to those years.Childhood, the year’s most anticipated is the Chinese New Year.About a month ago, the big people to begin preparation stocking, especially busy every day after the twelfth lunar month, “Twenty-three children Tanggua stick; XXIV sweep room day; XXV, fried tofu; XXVI, stewed white meat; xxvii, slaughtered rooster; xxviii, the surface hair; XXIX steamed buns; .”Eldest row full to the brim, but these days of celebration in the minds of children is far less than the New Year’s Eve that day important.Because there was a children’s festival that night – “free wine”.    To a New Year’s Eve, I am always kept urging them behind their parents ass from the red couplets posted as soon as possible, as soon as possible in order to allow the mother to me carefully freshen up, then great joy can not wait to dig from the bottom put out early on New Year bought clothes.In front of the mirror around and looked smug after a while my grandfather went to let the baby out of the closet to find a small jug and small jug is very simple, it is an empty bottle, but a lot smaller than the average, very delicate.Drilling an extra hole on the cap, to insert the straw a straw when.Only once a year at New Year’s Eve night, just became my entire childhood treasures.Small jug ready, I put my father specifically for this “festival” to buy liquor poured in, filling the full.He began contentedly waiting for partners to call my departure.    Custom home is the first fireworks night before New Year’s Eve to eat dumplings, dumplings.After the mother cooked dumplings, my father would go to the yard to put a long string of firecrackers, crackling, festivity surrounded by the sound of firecrackers out of a place in the red auspicious weather, the release of the new year strong taste.At the same time, the village clear, crisp sound of firecrackers will be heard, bustling!This is a signal to let the kids cheered, the more excited firecrackers explained more people cooked dumplings, eating dumplings can go, “free wine” of the!Festival finally kicked off, the happiest moment of the year is coming, and finally to the!After a few small partner appointment to complete the set, “send wine army” will joyfully off.    We began to send first from the village, everyone rushed into the house after the bounce to their small jug Pengdao host and hostess of mouth, “Uncle, aunt, we come to you to send wine!”Regardless Shu Shen really sucked his wine, his eyes began to search the table of candy, waiting for us to distribute aunt.A child likes to buy clothes bought in a large cloth bag, the reason is that the time to send wine can hold more candy too, and often carry additional installed a big, heavy bag.Wait until the cloth bag filled with good clothes on the “victories” transfer in, transfer and this activity will quietly in the corner of the door, because we see people worried about the big pocket full of candy will give us a little more fitted, so always make a “cash-strapped” look.Now think of it is very heart-warming thing is whether rich or poor, every household will put delicious all out to put on a plate full basket full of wine to send the children to prepare.We will enter every house gets two or three pieces of candy and twelve peanut seeds, and some will give home made cake sugar bun and even some particularly rare delicious, rarity these children always makes us happy to jump, “carried away”.Little friends would go door to door delivery, never miss a chance to get candy.Along the way will encounter different people to send wine to dial out a few teams, we will happily exchange about “fighting”.Hit the naughty boys, they always throw quickly cover your ears quickly ran away after a few rejection gun, hid in a distance girl joke.New Year’s Eve often snowy night, we wear new shoes to step on the snow, it creaked, like a merry tune after another.Carefully occasionally smoke a few mouthfuls of wine or a partner’s own wine, spicy tongue out.    Wait until the last one sent out of the wine, it was found running all night long face red with cold, numb with cold feet.Then there is the last of the processes – than candy.Partners put their candy all out to see who’s the most total, most children who rarity.This is the most worthy of showing off childhood victories.Finally, we are happily back home, and start looking forward to the next New Year’s Eve.This time send wine to get candy can open the river to eat goose.    Growing up, whenever I hear the footsteps of the New Year, I always think of those New Year’s Eve to send the wine, the taste of that candy aftertaste.

(Diary of two) how the word of a drunk

A diary of how two drunk a word of September 11.    Love worry depressive, how to say the king.I am not, nor awake after the lunch break, look at Mr. Ze thick “history”, and Dianqi “poetry anthology”, an overview of hundred lines, will not be able to find it because of the loss can not speak sorrowful.Fu to give up poetry, song, and then after Bin wine will remain at the time of writing, the hovering between guest bedroom, with no distraction, but no railing: “return to dream every wolf river, the river has been sound mashed ,,,,,, Ju Hong Lei Yuqing early, hide this Double Ninth day.Looking cool cloud evening leaf, dusk consider unlimited.”Last night at midnight does not rest, meditation countless dirty like blur, not some perception, the students speak versa boredom, anxiety and heart hate, but can not face weak swept forcing life” Phantom Magic Health.”Go to bed on the occasion, tossing and turning, as if a few set, I dreamed a dream, who are charged with murder sin; wake up and not wake, excited and nervous and frightened.Imagine a better suggestion, to appease the soul of the victim, to lead the Americans to call the situation between life in order to appease the best memories past, but always “sober place, is the willow shore, there are cold moon.”I am pessimistic injury Qi.    Such ups and downs of the struggle, in view of past memories of the morning, the recurring, about life and death, joy and sorrow concern, alternating infected me how life and nature?I am a patient of hysteria, or another pioneer?I sing poems and paid my dissolute and uninhibited, as well as quiet and Yue Ning, that even if we have thousands of customs, but talking with people and?    How can the tiles can be all day, the word of a drunk.    Heartbroken people in the horizon September 12 has also been “grass embankment, near the Mid-Autumn, a little wind but no color,” as if the poet in the journal, write poetry microblogging number first, and I feel strong, meaningful, infinitely touching; also been “my brother, late blessing ah, ah how fine you!”SMS, full of times past, fantasy Chuxiu, how much better, between the night, in the cups, comforted each other, but who knows sadness?And this morning, Yuning choke; sunny window, Autumn has been dyed, who is worthy mess?    From yesterday to say good face this state of mind and tragic; said yesterday must look good from poetry poetry, Su Shi Yi An Liuyong and Nalan, curtain westerly, thinner than flowers; now we say good meet, look each other in phase, sparkling stars, those who can not forget the night.Poor moment, no one understand the lonely mind, even his wife and children brothers, what railings, as well as the so-called confidante take over?Even Mother rebirth, Nirvana elegance, golden land, rain drop millet, Dongsheng Murakami, summer injustice Xuefei, how can the lotus thought, open your heart.    At this time, getting to the morning, some water sprinkled in several strains of plants and flowers on the balcony, whereby release doubts worry, storm drain junction section; be subjected in the field of wau size, can laugh.Status arrogant child sleep, let him calm feeling clean, as if Tori Nanshan, water springs, Westerly Road, Xuguang tomb grass, compassion and swagger of our lives my mother —–.My life, my mother, and so heartbroken people in the horizon, now at this time, but can not speak sorrowful smile and depressed, helpless.    Quefei positive energy, SORRY.

Love is the greatest motivation: a college student entrepreneurship, emotional experience

Inscription: This article is a bit long, but if you have time, then recommend that you look at, I believe this article will give you a deep feeling emotionally and career, and can you imagine what will happen attract.  To Shanghai for five years, and has been a rapid leap in their careers, the bitterness of life had a section of.However, looking back now it seems, the past five years also this is the ultimate opportunity to become upset me going, so I have a pretty good living conditions currently.7 million worth of some brothers who may be trivial, but I think most of my friends has not reached this state may be temporarily.Not the slightest meant to brag, I know a lot of my friends will be successful, so much stronger than I would be interested in my experience, I decided to settle down, to write a good character, hope it will not let friends down.  Today my heart have a clearer idea, and that is: love, only love, is one of the best power successful man, the most appropriate power.And certainly not their own vanity, or so-called ambition.As a man, the first thing that you need to have your true love.It will be like an atomic bomb, like the ability to inspire you, make you break out the infinite power, God will move you.Such a state is everyone’s dream state.  My friends, maybe you do not agree with me, let’s not busy arguing, you look at my experience and see if it makes sense.  1, 1999 in Shanghai, I quit my job just distribution of state organs, from Xinjiang to Shanghai.I was smug, I think on its own efforts and will be able to gain a firm foothold in this metropolis, setting their own piece of the sky.  I majored in economics and management, was not sensible, since, as the high, to Shanghai I was stupid: Such people simply do business, they want people who have certain skills, one can Officers, like me the actual work is not done people have the chance to provide training.Classmates and friends have found a working, as far as I underachievement, seeing the money brought slowly to the bottom, which grew more and more anxious, I do not really here comes yet?  Three months later, I finally found yourself a temporary job satisfaction, but far from your profession.I am the person many interests, but also full of energy, the university dabbled in many fields, ideas and more, writing skills can.Exactly one advertising company planning to recruit copywriter, I feel can do it, try a result, the company interviewer that although I have not done, but the ideas and skills is also good, say a good reputation for graduate school, leaving me now I still very grateful to the older generation, the latter work also proved his vision.Monthly salary of 3500, better life issue temporary solution.  Soon my life into a working state, I feel very happy.After two months, something to make me unprepared happened, I did not expect starts, my life had such a big change.  2, after work I met extremely warmly for the work, but also very hard, a couple of months after I had done the three cases, and customers are more satisfied with the boss bosses’.I was an organ is just out, bent on doing good work, two newspaper companies want the employer to know people well, do something that is spare no effort, but also humble and willing to learn, experience after another because organs, life on the road and generous, often ask my colleagues to eat and drink, they are also willing to help me, so get started soon become the backbone sector.Up to now I still advise young friends, work should be put into the heart and soul that this investment from the financial point of saying to anyone who would not lose money.Oh, but, during that time deposits 0.  One day I came to work the next morning drizzle person, from a place to live where the company car to fight, to multi-car, the car can not reach.Just when I’m going to turn on the car, a girl rushed up from the roadside, already soaked with outrageous hair, opened the back door to get on the car.I turned around and was about to ask her to get off the exit, take a look at her drenched as I say let a girl said I really do not go out, she seems to be really no other way, he looked at me and blushed.I smiled to her, back out.  The next morning, we met in the same place.It was a sunny day, we are waiting for the bus, she saw me take the initiative to apologize I responded with a smile, I pointed Come bus smiled and said: You do not have this car right away?She Oh laughed and said: to give you today!.  In this way, we know.  3, love her name is Yun, from Hunan.She is not only beautiful and gentle Hunan sister, but also the Hunan Women’s pungent and understanding.She also arrived in Shanghai, working in a trading company.  We quickly understanding, knowing each other, then love.Before knowing each other and perhaps still in love.I still can not quite understand, why all of a sudden love mess.Perhaps arrived in a strange place, just out of the existential threat, maybe I used to work has been laughing and joking, suddenly there appeared a good girl, but also with real feelings I disarmed.  Because we live in the past, after work all together, Yun said that every day the first time I hug her, she can not do without me, she said I appreciate her immense fascination.I love the feeling when my energy is infinite, to accompany my daily Yun to 23:12 points inspiration came also to the company to work overtime, that time is also high work efficiency.My friends say my eyes shining.As every day we see Sanqiu.When I looked into her eyes will forget hunger, a lot of times I was jumping bumper back home, suddenly found himself hungry can not stand, Oh.  One time I went to Chongming with the project, because the boat trips stopped late come back, so give her a call back to say no.We even pass a night more than 50 phone, not her fight over what I played in the past.The next morning I was out of the boat, actually found on the pier of the Yun I want to know where the taxi have one hour of road, she said in tears all night, early in the morning to wait for me.We cried together, happiness abnormal.  Soon we both think the other is the other half of their future family.The end of the year, Yun said let me go to her home to meet her family.I was nervous, but very happy, began to prepare gift.Oh, we all love the idea of that time carried away, there is no saving money.Fortunately, my salary rose to 5500, she also has 2500, we have enough to spend.  But not long after, a message put my feelings into a hell.  4, bride price to the end of the year, my gift is also almost ready, probably spent a total of more than 4,000.More than six months, I have become the company’s go-getters, the boss is also more optimistic about me.Because I have been the Northwest’s character, forthright but yet wise, never mind working overtime, what grants.More than the end boss made a lot of gifts on hand has bought 10,000, and feel that they have money, they simply did not think about money.  This time she’s a cousin came from her home, he said he came to see.I think largely because of her family to let her look at my son-not-to-door.She had said to me, her mother her home city boss, decide all matters.We dare not neglect, to have fun with her cousin again in Shanghai.Finally, I feel that she is quite satisfied with my cousin, my heart down the.  Went to a few days ago, Yun suddenly told me that the door may be more formal, somewhat evasive language.I do not quite understand, thought her mother might have been preliminary investigation by the bar.One day, the three of us at the time, like her cousin jokingly said to her sister, you are such a good condition, bride price can not be less ah!Aunt said, the talk of the town home the girl to be a man of Front Street 80000 it, we must not be less than 150,000.I spoke also to see.  God, I look like the power play, transfixed.To be honest, I grew up in Xinjiang grew up, very open-minded atmosphere, there is money to marry the man but in general 4?50000 great, but also explain to the child.When contacting the concept of bride price only read novels before, I never imagined that one day will be to his head.Her family now say this, there is absolutely serious, talking all the way to master the skills of so much.what should I do?Let her marry the idea of changing the approach?Save it!Why?I know the family foundation, must not reach out to the what should I do now?I smiled to see Yun and her cousin, Yun little nervous, my heart could not bear the.Ha ha!It seems that I want to show sincerity.I smiled and noncommittal answer.  what should I do?I go back and think about it over and over again.  This is a painful three days, I almost did not how to sleep.Yun saw it, she did not dare touch me carefully.I was very hold fire: how confused with her daughters married sell his daughter as?Sometimes I think altogether blow well, but the thought of us to be separated, and my heart like a knife, like involuntary tears down.The house has been a poor family, my brother was in college, it is impossible to reach out to the family; their wages?God, I now feel enough money to spend, only 1 million dollars on hand, but also to prepare to go to the bleeding, to say I’m saving money, but also for us to get married to buy a house to prepare ah, 150,000 to her house, we how do the future?  Over the years, I know about myself is that I like the style all their own.I think three days, I have a way to set the heart.Yun looked at me sometimes, overwhelmed.She knows my temper, his family and economic situation, but she also knew she could not change her mother’s idea, but the key is that she is a bride price is also a little thought should be given the.I told her, do not worry, I have a solution.  Soon, to her home, meet, handed him a gift, her mother nice chat and smart, steady and loving father.Soon two days later, we have to go, then that should also come to the.The Last Supper, her mother spoke: small d, you have two days with us, and we are quite satisfied with your.You’re a nice kid.If there is no accident, I hope you can this year (New Year) to set the marriage.You see when the courtesy to do?You talk about, but also your family and discuss it, please.?Yes, we’re in the custom you might not know, I do not know Ah Yun told you not to Satsuki.  I immediately caught the topic, smiled and said: Thank you, aunt, uncle, and I said Satsuki.Then I saw the tense Ah Yun’s face changed, and looked at me scared to death.Yes, ah, do not screw up the last paragraph.I smiled and assured her.  Aunt, uncle, I understand your feelings I, raising her daughter is not easy, to say only one daughter, and I think that if Bibi 150,000 investment, not that much, even not enough.We should give this money home.  I think the situation Ah Yun also told Erweilaoren my family, and I thought, is not necessarily the right, you two to hear.  150,000 should be given.But I feel that since I worked, I was earning a living, but I married Yun Ah, but you also feel like I’m fit, then the 150,000 should come to me instead of my house to.  Ah Yun fancy you and people should not only need 150,000 home, but also have the ability, the ability to give life in the future Ah Yun brings happiness.I think I have the ability.I only have 150,000, and should prove to you that I have the ability to Ayun Xing Fu.  I have only one request, is to me a short time, for two years now.We are still very small (Ah Yun 2 years younger than me), it does not matter come later married.Two years later, I would come up with 150,000, and will prove it to you, I and A Yun happy life ability.  In fact, that night my language far more exciting than my words, because there is love in my heart, and I touched her house everyone, Ah Yun’s face flushed.We take the time, his family is very happy, of course, maybe just the surface is, but at least his mother acquiesced to my request.Of course since then, I feel there is a huge mountain pressure in my heart, my life changed.After returning to Shanghai, my mood is not depressed, but a kind of war comes the calm and excitement.I was secretly determined, for my wife, my future happiness, I have to pay several times harder than others to realize my promise.I wholeheartedly desire to do so, and believe they will be successful.  Yun but very worried, and she said to me or we moved in together, you can save some life, she and I together to save money.I turned her down.Although we already had intimate relations, but I do not want to let her family know, so bad for her.And I do not want to let her save money together, after all, I said, this is my thing.I know a girl, living, clothes, cosmetics and so on, but also how to say it takes a month or so of 2000.I said, Yun this time I could not give you buy a lot of clothes and cosmetics, and she nodded solemnly.I do not know if I would later regret this decision as.  I started looking for other companies in the market.But reality soon let me down, to get a monthly salary of more than million in one year is impossible.How to do?I decided to resign.  8.Since it has been hard to prove that being the case, then left to go is a waste of time.I’m running out of time.And I think that if he resigned, there are chunks of time, be able to reach more deeper social opportunities correspondingly more.Ah Yun does not agree, she said too unstable.I could not convince her, she did not convince me.This is something I still do, I know, only the most drastic.  Before leaving the boss deep and talk time, please forgive him.Also part of my situation and told him.We had a good talk.The boss is very sorry, so I’ll likely come back to work, and I am reluctant to leave, but I have no escape route.  I started roaming around on the beach experience, riding a broken bike turn around in Shanghai, to find that a limited acquaintance, asked whether or not the project to do.I have around 10002 thousand dollars, that can support half a year.I think that six months if there is planning to do the project, I was hard point, to do everything themselves, and should be able to earn a 2-30000, a few more projects to work better than the.Oh, if my friends who I like the idea of that time, today I must advise you do not!Hindsight, I was too confident too anxious, really should look for opportunities while working, the time is ripe to do it again, otherwise 99% of the sea drowned.So I go through rain and wind, ran two months, did not go to a list, coupled with a lost bag, a loss of more than 1,000 dollars and a mobile phone.Accommodation, meals, transportation spent 3500 dollars, more than 7,000 dollars a left side.But that is no sign of a turnaround appeared.  9, the opportunity at this time, a unbelievable, there was a very good opportunity.I find a customer before me, that was one of his friends to do in Shanghai Jiading mayor of a town over there, they are in town three months later to do a Water emotions of activities, mainly to attract Hong Kong and Taiwan and foreigners investment funds.They want me to draw up the idea of a large-scale event planning book, the price is 40,000 yuan.The customer said before in our company and I worked, I feel I have the ability, but also to get the company to do the planning, prices generally go to more than 80,000.Our greater cooperation in space, and if done well planned book, event organization and production we have a chance.I am very happy, understand that he wanted to make some himself, and immediately gave him 2,000 yuan commissions.I do not know this habit have no effect on me, and now I have a chance to think we must invest, rather than most people think not rabbits not spread eagle.  Sleepless nights I worked more than 20 days, every night till 2:00, manuscript changed four times.And then himself posted more than 400 dollars produced three sample.To that friend, he very much appreciated, he kept saying to do good, it seems behind the production is also no problem, within a week I was waiting to get money now.I also put my heart sigh no white cast, quickly put the good news to Yun, she is very happy.After all, this is my first income ah!And still a lot of money.  10, cheated I never imagined that this actually looks good opportunity to actually run into a cheater.The customer got my program after unexpectedly disappeared!I could not wait a week later, this guy is not life and death and I contacted.I called, the phone has been shut down, he went to look for his original company, the company said that I was not their client’s people, but he let the company contracted to plan part of his book, and he had just the money the company has settled.I know the situation, they expressed sympathy, but no way: now they can not find people, to settle the money.  This time I blow is fatal, make my situation worse.I’ve spent a lot of energy do not say, the rest of the original 7000 dollars have been spent more than half my, leaving more than 3,000 of.Even more frightening is my time and spent more than a month.  11, discouraged extremely frustrating situation I told Yun, telling her when I clearly heard a beautiful bubble at the sound of breaking her heart.She did not say anything on the surface, but I knew she was extremely disappointed.We hugged speechless, I can only get a hint of warmth and comfort from her here.She said, you do not worry, it does not matter, we start all over again.But, my love, you know, this fight even let me look at their back, doubt their own: a northerner like me, is not suitable for working hard in Shanghai?  Despite the extreme loss and disappointment, but I can not let my girl for me down.The next day I said to Jiangdajingshen Ah Yun I want to start again.I thought all night, because I have no money, can not rent the original house, and I have to go to a private house to live, a month can save 700?800 yuan.But this can not and Yun as before from so close up.I said I can not stop, time is running out.Yun crying, holding me, I must be more to see her, she would want me, I have to come to her financial difficulties.I laughed and said, you have financial difficulties have come to me ah.  12, I moved to a residence waking of a private houses, it is that farmers built their own house, inside the house hot summer cold winter, and only 10 cottage size.I’ve been very satisfied, where only 200 yuan a month rent, than before I had saved up 800 dollars.  Later moved here, I have a long period of time not knowing what to do.I think this is a load of people had fallen a common problem, I believe had a similar experience of friends will feel the same.But do not do what my heart and anxiety.This contradictory feeling really let my mind every day are having a hard.  Instant be over a month, the month I was basically bread and pickles, stomach lack of water is really bad.I decided to buy some cooked meat greedy self.The houses around me have changed several new cell, because relatively far from the city, basically some of the city’s relocation of households moved here, really here to buy a house people who have no money, but such a person many in Shanghai, the area outside the popular or good.There are street between cells, but a lot of people, mostly elderly men wandering children.Cooked meat shop business does not seem very good, I want some meat bought a bottle of beer at the table next to the store easy to sit down and eat.  Years later I recall that moment, or think that God has given me in a desperate opportunity.Just then, suddenly someone and deli owner to speak, to say the boss, you will not do business ah!Yes ah, the boss said, I busy next week, ready to go home, do not do.That said, how do you store it?The boss said, turn the chanting, the past six months did not make any money, might as well do something else.Suddenly I had a feeling of waking, I find money everywhere, but ambitious, ignoring the opportunity this side, shall he has not seen?I’ll stand up, let the boss to give me a little beef, then casually asked him transfer case store.  But ten minutes, I will be clear: this shop also about 10 square feet, 1200 monthly rent, the rent paid him more than two months.His transfer fee is less demanding, no loss on the line, with a little simple facilities, 20,000 dollars now.I said I wanted to take over, but the price is too high, he dropped to 10,008.I said 10,005 today I would, he and his wife went back the following discussion, agreed.I immediately took me back to the room the only remaining 3000 dollars as a deposit to pay him, and then set a transfer books that night, of course, he agreed to pay the balance within 7 days.  13, I’m trying to find the previous owner of the company, asked him to lend me the money.I also brought my share of planning to do a book, I say I gave the company.Boss how much I heard things, he understood my situation in detail, said nothing lent me 15,000 dollars.I laughed and said: Boss, I bet you right here ID?, The boss smiled and said: Do you want my ID, 10005 I bet you there?Actually, now I have been admired my boss.His career is now doing very well, the family owned more than 30 million.  How can I store business is a big difference too?First of all, I recalled the previous congee shop, think Shanghai people love to eat chicken, especially sliced cold chicken, and duck, to determine the appropriate changes in the business varieties; In addition, the catering industry is the most important health (health permit to do a year, has been With), I decided to completely clean the store the day the store opened again posted signs, another bought a second-hand sterilizer, deliberately placed on the table to allow customers to see the process of disinfection facilities; then, I found a master craftsman to Shanghai guide the production process (retired rehired, very cheap), find the two sister diligent in Sichuan to help, promised to give them a performance of 5% commission, but I will not do substitutions; and so on more than 20 measures about it, but I was filled with two-page, all done has been nearly 10 days.Finally, I bought some firecrackers, Pilipala a place, I was immediately attracted to the popularity of the.Oh, that day till 23:00, inventory turnover actually has a more than 500!  14, dawn done business friends all know, opened the day after the business has been good business not necessarily be good.Since the beginning of the customer is curious, give it a try, especially once the attractiveness of what is not, they will immediately forget you.And you will again attract their attention much more difficult.  I understand this, so the next day to pull people to talk non-stop in front of the shop, ask how to taste, then without any explanation to send them some cooked food.Shanghai people inside and outside the points very clear, they will never be white things to other people, the vast majority have to pay some money, of course, they would not give somebody something white.Of course, I understand that business is the key to my goods to fit the customer’s taste.Slowly I shop there popularity.I also asked people to put up our store advertising in several district, also asked people to deliberately carry our duck walking in crowded places several cells, each containing between noise, subtly attract attention.By many such methods, one month after my shop daily turnover can reach $ 800, but also rising in.Oh, I had knowledge of planning in it with all the.  I was so busy from dawn to dusk, it probably dry 14,5 hours a day, complete the mind flutter in the store.Made after the first month of business, I count a bit, I earned a total of 9000 yuan; second month I earned 12,000.After the debts still out, I have no money.But I feel that my life has come a long absence dawn.To be honest, this feeling is really wonderful.  I’m just running his own shop, and after a time 3?4 months.During busy I slept five or six hours a day, a lay unconscious on the way.I and A Yun by phone several times, she is busy, because she was promoted to a senior business.We met a few times, she let me have a good rest, I smile and say, you say it back to marry.She said that you earn money by Menlian?I smiled, a few months after the decision to give her a surprise.  Four months later, I had saved up 50,000 dollars, but also approaching the end.I calculate the time only a little more than 13 months.Possibility if allowed to develop according to this pattern now, I accomplished the goal is firmly 150,000.I’m just a month to maintain the current state, then a year later I should use 18?200,000, the money is enough, you can also do a decent wedding.If you do not then the landlord rent collection event, I think I will continue to think so.  After the landlord to collect a few monthly, on the end of the year.One day the landlord suddenly appeared and that is to sign a rental contract for next year, but the price twice as expensive.So angry I almost fell out, this is clearly jealous watching my business is good thing!But I know that people under the eaves, can not bow their heads ah.I say that now, but the problem can not be.He and I Haoshuodaishuo, and gave him some cooked food, the landlord still subject to my 1000 dollars per month.  It made me realize that the crisis has revealed.Well done the business after the first landlord will rent prices, can no longer decline in value, all costs will rise; second, competitors will emerge soon after emergence and my shop is the same size, the customer is bound to split.So this kind of money the state will not last long.If I do not action, the end result I want to figure that out: the shop a few months back to the point where subsistence.So how can I do it?I did not sleep all night, trying to come up countermeasures.  The next morning, I made up my mind, decided to gamble, take a big risk!  16, adventurous My plan is this: first, in the area near the deli to open several such.As long as I have lots and lots of stores now almost on the line, but not too close, and then use the same decoration, the same name, the same as planning instruments, and establish a brand image area residents in mind, so the purchase price will be much cheaper, but also latecomers may be forced to increase investment.The implementation of the plan as quickly as possible.The second step, I think the retail price is not high, more than 2,000 to pay rent as I buy it.Shanghai’s friends all know, only 2,000 of Shanghai suburbs house prices by the end of 2000, more than 3,000 shops only.This step must be implemented steadily, one by one.But I’m so now I have to put all 50,000 dollars, if once failed, my time, my money invested may make completely objective can not be achieved.But I thought, I do not do it, someone else put their hopes in the business do not rob, I do, I hope in my own body.Compared to what I am willing to pin their hopes on himself.  But I’ve thought of Yun gave me a surprise plan only delayed.I said to myself, for her, to come up with all your strength, right!It was very difficult month.One shop I not only want to take care of business, but also the location for the store II, III shop, selection, buy facilities, store layout, etc..Later, I improved a commission percentage One store clerk, and him as the manager, told him a month after the store’s turnover fell more than 5% if, immediately change manager.So I devoted myself to the opening of new stores.After a month, my number two stores, III shops have opened, I still can not idle, began a planned rally as before, and began preparations for the 4th shop.  A month later, my number one store profitability is good, reached 12,000 yuan, 5000 yuan shop II, No. 3 store actually has 10,000 yuan!To know that this is the first month, people still unfamiliar with it!I found the reason is a very talented girl clerk to do business, customers will recruit gaze, I said nothing to her salary doubled, directly promoted to manager.  The end of scheduled arrival, Yun and I just spent together for a long time, we will have a busy with their own storefront.Yun want to go home, I can not go, the goal did not complete her family how I see it?But me and her mother through a phone call, her mother said with a smile: small d, we know you are a good kind of child, we are expecting you to marry me take it home Among the early!I know the meaning of these words in, also smiled and replied: I will, thank you trust aunt and uncle.  Years of the end of two months, because the Chinese New Year, holiday and more, my business is good mess.Fourth store also opened in time for the Spring Festival.This January, two months each store on average earn cash 15000,2 months after I reached around 120,000.I gradually began to talk about the East Room of the individual and to purchase the pavement, if they do not sell, I’ll find another landlord to talk about, when many houses are the property of, get better.And then low prices, and I give a slightly higher price, the previous three all talk very well, priced at about 3700 a square bar, a total of 130,000, give me all the cash.Fourth to 50,000, I have no money, but the pledge in front of a shop as 30,000 sign a letter of intent, until one month after the capital return, and cobble together the money to put down the shop took.  This time is already the end of March, and I left eight months.Business seems to be steadily, as if the goal is getting closer.But I did not think I hit hard enough to destroy a getting closer.To this day I recall my memories of this time period, but also feel eyes wet with tears.  17, hit Time and after three and a half months, going up to July 10, and the reason I remember this day because this is Yun’s birthday.I decided to save enough before this date 150,000, and the news as a birthday gift for her.Think she got this gift of time happy, my heart felt extremely excited.This store also disappointing months, each store will be able to reach more than 10,000 of profit, which is more than I shop because the low cost of the purchase, but do not pay the rent, there is a main reason is that I used a good manager Xiaocheng.  Xiaocheng is in front of me exceptional promotion to manager of the girl.This girl is from Zhejiang came only 19 years old, who long handsome beautiful (because you want to attract customers, which is a more important factor, to recruit people when I pay special attention to find comfortable looking at girls).Because most of the girls from outside is not generally come in Zhejiang, so I pay special attention to her.I did not expect this girl is really talented in terms of doing business, she has been very happy the way, never seen her tired too, will speak, sweet people, very good customer edge.And she is very mind, opened a few days to put the names of all the regulars memorize, and also advised me, hot weather, store in point with vegetables, beer, buy some simple tables and chairs, to allow customers to eat and enjoy the cool air at night.She also several hotels around the phone got, the hotel business also pulled in.Later we deli business hotel actually purchase accounted for 30%!  But she is also a little bad, if the body is too thin, can not do the effort to live long too tired to face pale, sweating.Store business is good, it is also quite affected.I thought for a few days, decided to Jan length, to avoid its short, in the store and recruited a robust young man to her along the way, told her just to attract customers, management accounting.  This time one of my friends call me.It turned out he does not know where I learned a few shops opened, doing okay, but he is doing real estate sales, a proxy villa plate, I have to go and see.Shanghai’s friends all know, in 2001 when the Shanghai property not far from hot, real estate sales, especially sales of hard to do Gaojiefang.He represents that there are more than 180 square feet of room villa, surrounded by matching is not perfect, to say the total price up to 800,000, I do not want to buy, tell him not so much money.He said, you look at it, certainly looked like, say things much easier to handle money, loans on the line.I would also like to say that the down payment it, I have no down payment.He said okay, he can do hands and feet in the contract, let me zero down payment, the total loan.I have no option but to go and see, I did not expect after reading the following particularly fond of the villa’s garden, because I remember Yun once told me that her dream is to live above the garden, open the windows every morning you can smell the fragrance of flowers.Friends look at me deliberately, desperately encouraged me to buy a house this offer, the free, as long as a month to pay more than 6,000 on it.I was a little hesitant to say I do not want to go to the bank every month.He said, I can help you do, automatically transfer money every month, you do not have to worry about.I do not pick up again, think on the set set.But then know that this kid is playing an ambush, some exaggeration: he said the window is not double, parking is not free, Oh.  July 9, I took a share of $ 150,000 passbook cards, excitedly holding a bouquet of flowers, carrying a bottle of red wine product (cake tomorrow, send for) rushed to the residence Yun.Before, I had to give her mother a telephone call, say hello to her parents.At the same time tell them that I have 5 months to achieve the promise, will soon marry her daughter home.I decided to give Yun a surprise, then stay with her here tonight.I deliberately catch one o’clock before she arrived from work, ready suddenly appeared, scared she cried out in joy.  But let me unexpected thing happened, not a man to get off when Yun, but a boy with.Hand in hand they seem very intimate.I look silly, do not know how to run, they went into the community, I foolishly followed.In light shade, the young man also grabbed and kissed Yun.H’s what my head, can not stand.I shouted the name of Yun, Yun rushed forward grabbed, then we would hit the man.Yun was shocked, I pulled desperately for the man said brisk walking, you go first, I explained to him.Men gone, Yun was pulled me tightly, called me to explain what?Explain what?While tears down fast.Yun looked at me, very calm, cool, we did not recognize.She said sorry to me, I should have told.But I was too calm today, she wants me to calm down, and now we can not talk about the atmosphere.I can not calm, I said no, today you have to give me an explanation.She was no way I was entangled, said to me, d, I have always thought highly of your qualities, you will like this today, I’m disappointed.I stopped, looked at her, tears streaming down slowly. Finally, she said, well, I go tomorrow to talk.Out of the area and found flowers and wine was still in the hands of a put them in the trash.  I Yiyewumian night, staring out in a daze, how also do not understand how things will be to the point where.The next morning I was waiting downstairs Yun.Under Yun for us to find a place to go.We went to a tea room, I sat down blankly, waiting for her to explain.She said a lot that day, I can not remember some.She said that, in fact, we rarely go away together.She knows me very hard, very hard, but experience so many twists and turns, really doubt I was not able to realize the promise of 150,000.Her heart began afraid, but not any opportunity and I said.I do not pressure her to share.In Shanghai for so long, she, like me, are also not very hard to do the feeling of belonging, feel very tired.This time her boss, that is, the boy appeared at her side, the boy is from Shanghai, older than her 4-year-old, a good position in the company, Ye Hao home conditions.Yun said with him, she will feel very at ease, very stable, very insecure, like me, although feeling was very warm, but do not always know where our future.She said I’m sorry, really sorry.I am excited to whole body trembled chaos, unable to speak.With great difficulty a little calmer, I told her that I now have 150,000, you still love me?She said, I’m sorry, I feel very good now, I can not sorry for him, we will not be together, I hope your future happiness.When I found out the boy, and my heart felt the sting.About here, they must be the result of consultation.  18, suspect that this is really a great irony.All along, I was struggling with her power, but wait for me to struggle in front of goal, only to find the target suddenly disappeared.I remember that time, I began to sleep, want to quickly go to sleep, then dream Yun.But I never once dreamed of her, it touches me awake have never stop thinking about her.I often feel a little tingling, tingling scalp.All along, I so carefully put her heart into me the warmest, softest place, I did not think the most painful blow was generated by here.  During that time I had doubts about her past actions, I do it in the end what is the point?If the company I was working, there is still time every day, the situation is not so.If I do not move, things will not be so.If I do not shop, there is time to accompany her, the situation could not have been.Is the shop, and if I do not open branches, but also have time to see her, she should be able to prevent the situation changed.Every day I thought this mess filled my mind, I simply can not afford to put business interest.  Store employees saw it, I did not dare touch them carefully.Several very competent manager, for fear that things will shop attracted me furious.Especially small achievements, she took the initiative to find me that she came to the store inventory various every day, to keep me busy my own thing.I am very grateful to her, I believe her ability to tell a few stores later by her shop to check.I know this state if hard to let me go, not non-accident.Xiaocheng with great finesse, but also have the ability to do more to check the store two hours a day, she quickly let other people instill obedience.Fortunately, there are small achievements and their help, no impact my business.  But I know that I have lost the way forward.I do not know how to find this direction.  19, lost when he was tired of working at home stressful times very hard, I do not think so.I think a person lost in the most painful time, because you do not know what to do, all the time in this state deeply remind you every day, but nothing is a zombie.At that time it is when I lost.I’m like a clock pendulum is take away the spring, but is driven by the inertia in my swing every day.I do not know when it will shut down.Perhaps in the depths of my heart still secretly hope that shut down time.  Yun’s mother gave me a phone, she received a phone call to know, my heart really do not know what it’s like.Her mother said to me, child, aunt know you are very sad.You young people really do not know how to engage.But aunt told you, you’re a good boy.Your future is still a long way big.Ah Yun can not be with you, she is not a blessing.Well, we wish you all the family.Hearing this, my tears stayed.I used to think she was so stubborn and forces, how her words felt so warm today.I was finally able to really stand on a parent’s point of view it bride price, it is ah, that is to make his daughter happy future life as much as possible to catch the feeling of the hands of.  Here I would like to thank one of my college classmates Feng, if not he happened to come to Shanghai, asked me to accompany it, I do not know how long this state to continue.Feng came to Shanghai to play, I’ll specify, but said that was not immediately to accompany all buddy called and said I did not Shanghai.I Qiangdajingshen, maple or be aware of.Feng saw me say, your kid how to lose weight reduction is so obvious, No, no, we can not photograph together, otherwise the class flower saw the photo, I did a little asking for too much.He is such, that amused me happy a few days.Leave when Feng said, Tell me, how the.I knew, he had seen that I have something, it always makes me happy.Since Yun change of heart, I never had to talk to people.After maple heard, he did not speak for a long time.Later, an opening that one: good!This is a good thing!I was stunned to hear.  Feng went on to explain, and I now am start Yun good thing.Because now is not separated, sooner or later we have to separate.Because we are not the way people.When the kind of contented heart Yun who can not stand the turmoil, separate time depends mainly on fluctuations in intensity I may be; and I am not the kind of law-abiding people, the more negative, the more difficult, the more excited My ability.I survive in the appropriate variables in development.And I do not really care about the matter, so the feeling is very pure, most of the girls want to get married to a critical moment, the reality of life and upbringing of offspring they have to make this matter up.This can not say no.This is why he is not opposed to the original reason Yun bride price.He said that people like me, only to a level of material life, the girls will have a secure contact feel, now is not enough.But you should thank Yun, she inspired you, she put your lucky you are, otherwise you are together, Yun will be your shackles.He also said that your struggle is her power?What about your family, friends do?What about us?Your former boss of it?Your employees do?We always thought you National Cheng Kung University, for us this trust, you should not give up.And, to be honest, this is your family business is also very small, accidentally, soon lost the battle.  He also told me to pay attention to small achievements, this little girl too smart.I was too slow for the only woman planted somersault.After absolutely can not let her sole charge of financial power, I have to take a grip of her.Finally, he patted me, brother, wake up now, the outside world is very cruel, very exciting, but definitely not for the appearance of your preparation.  20, because the mind subtlety comfort that a straight from the heart talk and maple, I finally began to slowly get rid of the shadow of lost love.I’ve come to the family a telephone call to his brother, also a telephone call, but also have contact with friends and classmates, went to visit the former boss, they are happy for me to struggle status and income in Shanghai.The reason I do this is to remind myself that my world is still, still in my life, I want to take the initiative to let them take me back to my world.Their love for me will be my motivation, which is more endless, longer-lasting power.  I also listened to the Maple proposal, to reclaim the financial management authority and permission store.I put the small achievements and swap another manager position, then carefully inquired recent accounts, but also quietly privately and others talked about the side we asked their views on small achievements, we did not say anything valuable, then, in addition to One store manager, his oldest.One manager said small achievements are too domineering, too disrespectful, anything set their own, and not the boss to discuss, let alone other people.Daily financial accounts, cash all her tube, never let others to intervene, do not know how she thinks.Because I do not handle anything found in small achievements, we can only comfort him, did not do what action.  This time No. 4 Xiao Xu store (he is my trick for the small achievements along the way folks) to find me, want to change the requirements of local, small achievements he will want to go to a store, or to resign.I started very strange, and later came to understand, to understand Xiao Xu’s mind: Xiao Xu had been in love with the small achievements.I agree with small Xu requirements, but also more vigilant, because the company has a pair of words, easy to form small groups, and they easily quit together, become my new competitors.I had secretly more carefully and Xiao Xu Xiaocheng.  21, love my mind gradually returned to the business.Have to admit, a set of small achievements.She summed up some hospitality management practices and methods useful.Her practice finer than I practice, I am more inclined to plan a number of activities and approaches, more obvious short-term effects, but the long-term development still needs refinement of management.Business is still developing slowly, we basically half-yearly profit increase by 20% this regard because the management of refinement, familiar staff; on the other hand is still here thanks to the popularity of getting busy up.This went on for years, to April 2002, I already had on hand more than 500,000 funds.After talking to small achievements and learn about a lot of her thoughts, yet when I think I can not do without small achievements.This time I found a small pair Xiao Xu is faint, their relationship does not seem to get close up.  Because the care of small achievements, I found more and more details Xiaocheng body: she lived, love clean, love to laugh, love reading, very cold, especially fear of cold, not like cats and dogs, etc..Because the sake of business, communication and I Xiaocheng more and more, there is a growing understanding of her wise and capable.Sometimes I think, so smart girl because of family reasons can not go to college really a pity!And then I thought, is college so what?I am not that students do?I have seen it even less?The original psychological readiness can also make people pay attention to such a person.  One day I went to check the shop and found that small achievements did not come to work, and asked for a moment, a staff said she was not feeling well, do not come today.Small achievements did not come, Xiao Xu did not come, I think anyway, am nothing, should see small achievements are not very ill, they asked them to address, out to buy some fruit, a taxi to live Xiaocheng place rush.  Xiaocheng place to live I did not come to the cell door, I found a more upscale area, where one bedroom house a month to 1000, and I think while walking, while very puzzled why the small achievements will less than half of the monthly income for rent, in particular, ask yourself just moved out of private houses in the near future, and now the house is merely 1,000 yuan.Is cranky, Xiao Xu suddenly found out from a doorway, hurried look, I quickly to avoid the side, he looked toward Xiao Xu step onto a bike store rush.  Xiao Xu suddenly saw here a moment, my heart had a very strange taste.One kind of uncomfortable, as if my heart is sour feeling jealous, and felt a rush of chagrin.This feeling without reason, seems to be entirely natural produce, but a moment later, I suddenly burst of shocked Do I care so much about small achievements?Do I have unknowingly fallen in love with her?This is an even I was surprised to find, for long ago lost love, I always feel like I have not love, not love, and sometimes I come into contact with some of the girls, but I can not mention feeling.Unexpectedly, I love the feeling will recover in small achievements here?Xiaocheng but I have been wary of people ah!  Between the moment, my mind surging, 10,000 kinds of thinking seems to have been activated at the same time: I lost Yun, the small achievements as a replacement for emotional yet?No, Xiaocheng together and feel completely different and Yun, we communicate more peaceful, and therefore more integration, and I feel more relaxed.Yun together and completely submerged passions and impulses, mental and spiritual aspects of our exchanges seem less if more, then, it will not have that kind of result; I pity because she was ill and she do?No, I was capable of distinguishing between compassion and love, and now my heart is sad but clearly there is a sweet feeling; is it to see the man instinctively Xiaoxu due to dissatisfaction with heterosexual exclusivity?Nor is it because I clearly know that I will not be around all the girls are a lover of Lover’s you as you, you have experienced painful feelings, so you have to distinguish, this is your true feelings, your true love it?You do not bring your own or someone else’s pain groggy!  But the more I think, the more clear Xiaocheng smile, we exchange words and scenes and so on impression, the more I think Xiaocheng is really suitable for my girl.She’s cheerful, she’s calm, she’s smart and capable, her understanding, as well as her efforts for my career and success, of course, her lovely, arouses pity the way which I have not previously obvious I feel, but today I feel for me, is as indispensable as the air!  Love seedlings once ground-breaking, the pace of growth is amazing!After I stood downstairs less than 30 minutes, I have felt my mind began surging can not afford it, she must want to talk to in order to ease.But I’m not an expert language to express love, especially now this exciting time, I think I’m excited let alone speak, can not even breath exhaled smoothly.I was uneasy, but she decided to speak out at once, right now!  She knocked on the door, her face pale, but her eyes so calm, gentle, not surprised.I would be more panic, no matter, I must say that I, I am you, you, you’re sick I find that I can not do without you!I found that I love you!Xiaocheng, you listen to me, I love you.I like you.I want to give you, I can not do without you.!  That day I said a lot of it?I do not know, remember.But the result I remember, I refused Xiaocheng.  22, in the emotional reasons, I am a thin skinned man.After quietly listening to small achievements express my incoherent, head down, quietly shook his head can not accept, I do not know how to do it.why?Because you and Xiao Xu?I ask.She shook her head, did not speak, but I saw she had tears shed.Stay for a while, I do not know how to do, it has been panic and confusion to confusion.Finally, I left her residence.To see small achievements, is two days after the.She came to work, and so I went to the store, a distant figure to see her, my heart pounding non-stop, but saw her face and I do not know what to say words.She saw me as if blushed a little, and I speak it since.To be honest, I think she likes me, especially recalls the kind of dedication and volunteered her time to help me before, I more and more think so, but why does she refuse me?I do not understand, hey, I really do not understand the mind of a girl ah.She does her work was organized as a high efficiency.I do not want to bother, go to the other store.  To four, in May, the weather was a bit hot, because just over the years, business is off-season.We wish to hotter, so people are willing to come out to dinner; but because of the heat, the food industry is very risky, absolutely can not appear bad food, otherwise damage to the business is great.At this time we usually step up and contact the hotel, because the hotel to capacity, and predictable, this small risk.Because this area has been in charge of small achievements, so now but she’ll be busy off-season, I also quite at ease.Unexpectedly, shortly Xiaocheng suddenly out of things, she was tired fainted in the store.  At that time I received a phone call rapid rushed to the store, Xiao Xu has helped the small achievements sitting on a chair, she is giving advice given medicines based on small achievements.Xiaocheng strongly disagreed go to the hospital, Xiao Xu is no way they saw me coming, they are seen as savior.I am without any explanation, to Xiao Xu said: you go out and take a taxi, the two of us took her to the hospital!Xiao Xu went out, I threw away Xiaocheng.  To the hospital for tests, we waited outside, Xiao Xu has not talk to me.I mean, he probably feels out of small achievements, he was a bit alert bar.After about a few minutes of it, the doctor came out and whispered: as **, colleagues or family members?We all stood up, blame the doctors told us that small achievements with congenital heart disease, can not work tired, excited, not cold.Her heart is bigger than the average person because a child is no surgery, and now the possibility of surgery is very small, only resting.  This time my mind as a split in general, understand why she was a bit tired paled; why she can not do physical work; why she was cold, not cold; why she lived so close to the house because the hospital; even, I also understand why she rejected me.Xiao Xu obviously do not know the truth, he froze for a moment some loss in the side.I was the first to burst into the emergency room, small achievements saw me, she apparently heard the doctor told us.Her eyes calm, gentle, and look forward to.I walked around the small achievements, grabbed her hand, she said softly: I know.You should have told me.I’m with you, we face together, okay?She said, holding the hand attached to his face, Xiaocheng brush the tears down.At this time, Xiao Xu came just to see.The nurse said anxiously, she could not excited, you go out!Out!  I finally got the small achievements recognized.She later told me that, in fact, she began to feel that I am falling out of love, very poor, willing to help me to do something, then slowly in love with me; but then she found me in the anti-her, so she is very sad; she I refused partly because the girl’s revenge, she also has; on the other hand, she knew her illness, I do not want to drag.Finally, she leaned on my bedside, shining with tears, she said to me: you know?A girl on the outside, often tiring ah.I fainted when thought, really go, nothing else, is a good regret ah, you and I should love a ah.I was not good selfish?I really can not be reconciled.I did not say anything, just put her tightly in his arms.  Xiaocheng also told me that she was born with the disease, and his parents have been in business, the family is not really short of money.  Family let her reading for high school and university entrance exam have been admitted, but worry far no one to take care of, would not let her go on life and death.Xiaocheng very reluctant to become a burden to the family that he ran out to work, determined to support herself.She had on family and monasteries, so business is very good at.I just put her trick came.She said Xiao Xu has been very good to her, she stayed with Xiao Xu overtime, but she knew they could not.  Xiaocheng insisted was discharged a few days later, she said, lived how many times a hospital, or at home, comfortable, not that you convalesce.We moved in together.This is my insistence, I said I have to take good care of you.Xiao Xu to resign, I said nothing agreed.  Finally, I ate dinner with him.He deeply sad to say, she did not expect to have less severe disease, I was stunned for a while, hey, you start and go.Later, a drink, he said, you have the money than me, she certainly vote for you.I usually grab him, and said unto him, nonsense, not small achievements that people value money.As for money, Xiao Xu, work hard, you’re young, you will have money, perhaps more than I have money.Maybe by then you will understand Xiaocheng.  23, Xiaocheng lack technique and my relationship set the future, we will often lengthy conversation.She read a lot, especially like ancient poetry.We have a lot of things to talk about with relish, you can talk for hours on an event.Now I wonder, love love, say it makes sense to talk about.Sometimes she would wake up from a dream, silently watching me for a long time.I asked her why, she said she was happy, not sleep.Sometimes she would cry, saying it was homesick.I want to contact her family, she did not allow.I will not let her check the shop, took her to see every day on the line.But she was restless, said to me, I want to idle at home Hao Zhao, run this doing here?  I have no idea.This business would want such a trend continues, we will not worry about the future about the money.But this time the business was suddenly something unexpected thing affected.  After a few months, we are here to be heard to the road, the main road to open up and connect.Because we have two stores are part of a temporary room will certainly be torn down.Temporary business house demolished, the council make a little money, but for us it is not worthwhile, because the pavement near the already prices, customers are familiar with.I thought for a long time, there is no way.To keep Xiaocheng know worry, I’m not in front of her performance a lot of pressure.  I also secretly pay attention to the condition of small achievements, I feel like more and more serious.I also find the reason for her everywhere this disease, treatment and precautions.The doctor said to me was right, this disease usually can not get married, but prohibit birth, because her heart will not stand.Generally resolved surgery infancy, adult postoperative success rate is very low.With the exception of resting, not tired, especially not cold.In addition, there is no better cure.I think the barriers are formidable than any I had encountered difficulties, there is a helpless feeling.  24, maybe a lot of friends farewell complex emotional experience than I do, but I have always thought my destiny to be unfair, I have been also asked God: Why do not you give me a little longer true love, like life.Until recently, I did not untie this knot.  Xiaocheng himself feeling.Sometimes she would hug me, I really do not want to hand you over to another person, I let her nonsense.Sometimes she would say, I’m gone, you must find a good.You see, she was in constant contradiction.I think she really ordinary person, an ordinary girl’s thoughts and ideas she has, it is these so I think she made me a very pity people.Her heart beat faster and faster, not the rule.I will not let her go to the store with me, but also to find an aunt to take care of her.One day, she told me, no, I can help you earn so much money, never did feel housewife, you should pay out the money, I want to control the money, doing housewife.I smiled passbook, passwords, social security, are handed over to her real estate license.What it can not?Which I believe I can earn back lost.  In the fall, cold, small achievements seem more bad.Her face is not good, fast heart beat, I sent her to the hospital.I felt called to take her family.This time she did not refuse, but she said her family first and make a phone call, let me hear.Phone less than two days, her parents rushed to the scene.I do not know her and what her parents said, her parents met my special pro, he kept in front of me in tears, and said the child was too stubborn temper.When the three of us, her parents would like my own parents, I kept my attention the body, eat more, and more wear some.  I really do not want to remember that day, No. December 21, she was admitted to the hospital two months and a half months time.In fact, she went, the heart has been great.The doctor said that this disease usually is the heart suddenly stops, sudden death, like her less, she also belongs to the more serious.I keep hearing tears in her bed last words were: uncomfortable, stuffy chest good.Thank you.  25, I bid farewell to the small achievements gift.I do not know how to describe the feelings I was distraught.Because I can not show it in front of her parents, or her mother, there is no way to control their feelings.Think in front of a friend asked me if all my net worth in exchange for love, how I would choose?I think I can answer here: friends, if you want to leave you with one hand, the cost of all your net worth, what would you choose?If you have hesitation, the answer is very simple and it’s not your true love.I felt my heart was no longer complete the.  In her belongings to her before I found the book, but has less of a real estate license real estate license in my villa.  Of course, I also found a letter.In fact, I knew she was Xieyi Shu, in his heart just could not bear to admit it.She’s so smart girl will think of these.  Suicide note said: I’m sorry, I can not go on together, and you busy.Do not be sad, after that you should always think I.Nice to meet you, I was scared so senselessly gone, and now know my life than I had thought a lot better, so I do not regret.That will bring you and my parents the pain you have to be strong, hold on, you have to go a long way right.I have to sell your villa, you give it to buy another girl, right?I call the shots, you will blame me?Because our deli not a permanent solution, you will not be willing to butcher a lifetime, is not it?I went to set up a shop, with a down payment of money to sell the villa, the remaining two stores, sell it, as well as the demolition of the store, to get compensation, and we (me with us, you like it?) Before the money, a lot of it, Freeze flower.Then go to my house, and my dad share what you might be able to find opportunities.He will help you. I have told you.You should have a greater cause.  If you call the shots for me, really made money, even if I left you a gift.Loss, just when I had to sacrifice their lives for you busy, I deserve the money I took.Oh, I do not want money, just you had a happier, it depends on your own efforts 26, after the transformation of the things small achievements, my business once was, and may also be related to my mood.End of January 2003, I sold my two shops.It took another three months, I got the municipal grant funds.Plus the money in my hand, a total of 109.50000.My villa, Xiaocheng to sell the unit price of around 8500, with around 800,000 down payment made to buy a 300 square shops around, but four months later to be submitted.The local shops, nearly a year after I hire to 7 yuan per square every day, a month to recover in December 2003, when more than 60,000 yuan, after deducting my monthly repayments can remaining 40,000 dollars.It has basically the equivalent of one month’s earnings I had four stores, and earlier this year, I let the appraiser estimates about the price, has come to about 19,000 per square up.Xiaocheng, let me see you again your intelligence.  Think before small achievements every day so happy, so full look, now I understand: in fact, she has been in at any time to stop the shadow of life, so her attitude towards life but so open-minded, cheerful, and busy fulfilling.This is the life should have some attitude.I should live like this.And I can not rent living alone.I started thinking about a new career, I decided as Xiaocheng said, went to her house once.I contacted her parents and little, they are very enthusiastic, so I can always go.Although I have more than 100 million in cash than before, but my heart is not easy, because this time I was faced with the transition from catering to other industries, it is actually a start over.  In April 2003, I went to a small married.Xiaocheng parents doing leather business, they have been providing customized for foreign cars and furniture leather seats and cushion bag.I did not expect them to do great business.And they are workshops where every family, every household factories, Zhejiang really let me experience the power of the private economy.And communicate with their parents after her, I knew what the 100 million in cash was not enough to do in this regard.Her family said to me, could provide financial help, and they plied I can do, I am willing to stay and will do.But I refused.I have a feeling this is not the business I’m looking for, and I was willing to own struggle.Her parents recognized my son is doing, I walked that day, in her house for dinner, I was drunk.Her mother cried.  27, I finally did not accept attempts to Xiaocheng parents good intentions, not far from the kingdom of heaven Xiaocheng know I know this choice is satisfied or not satisfied.I think she understood me, and I have been so independent, always thought their own things to do.Although her parents did not do that industry, but her parents said, leaving the sentence when it touches on so I think for a long time.Her parents said that their products are now slowly the domestic automobile manufacturers have begun to goods, which is not saying that there are still great opportunities in this industry it?  In 2003 I returned to Shanghai after the end of April, 70% of the total price Youyi 700,000 loan to buy a house, after all, also have to live, pay rent is better to pay loans.Then I consider the main direction for the next step.I no longer consider the catering industry, the reason may be a bit sad in there.I want a new career, a new me.I also think the IT industry is not good, because I saw this young man a few years to start a company around 80% of selected IT industry, competition is fierce, and the operating conditions are not ideal, I estimate will take at least a few years out of this industry will be normal.Electronic processing, service or something, I have considered.After much deliberation relatively long time, I decided to try to do the agents of foreign brands and high-end automobile engine oil lubricants.I think Xiaocheng parents gave me the inspiration was some truth: the domestic auto market is only just beginning, there will be 10 years of rapid development, the industry is like the computer industry 10 years ago to do the same, It is worthy of my investment.  My habit is: The idea has been decided, will not hesitate to act.In early May, I find a good office space, began to recruit people; the end of May, office furniture and staff approach; June, I got a business license and invoice.I became familiar with this market channels, customers, products.At that time I almost every day to go Wuzhong, check the internet all day, write e-mail asking product performance, pricing, and so forth every day to ask for samples abroad.By August, when the company finally set up a full-fledged agent and an agent of 4 products.Then I began to constantly run around the city in Jiangsu and Zhejiang provinces, looking, visiting agents and retailers, as well as negotiate with them.I think so, to my current strength torn hole in this industry Shanghai’s too hard, I should start with surrounding start.I started to open car, and later in October, when I sold a Mazda Familia loans.I cash my opinion or should keep company with development.  Although the second half of 2003. I do very hard, but to the end of a count, I did not make money in this company, but a loss of 120,000.The average monthly loss of 20,000.Some friends will ask, the automotive industry in 2003 was the hottest, and how do you lose out?The loss I just did not have the heartache and accidents, partly because I have experienced a lot of wind and rain on business, but more importantly because it is in my expected within.  There are many business, some people are a long accumulation of skills, experience, relationships and channels to make money; this is the time for space; some people is a fresh recruit, eat days, which is a monopoly or to technical victory; there are people with money exchange skills, experience, relationships, and business flow channel, which is space for time; what I do.I just entered this industry, experience, relationships, customer base and channels will not work, come in to make money is unlikely.But not to be afraid to spend money and stop the pace, business must go out, the development process can not be stopped.The past six months, although not much I ship, far from feed companies, but first, I organized a team, familiar with the team, exercise the strength of the team; the second is established sales channels, Jiangsu and Zhejiang Provinces we have developed more than 70 lower-level agents, we let them try to open the market, but also familiar with competitors, customers public relations and so on, it’s all going well.In 2003 car sales are hot, but I think this one belongs to our automotive maintenance and repair class there will be a lag.Our performance at the end of 2003 has been much better than in August.For the upcoming 2004 years, I confidently.  28, the company’s actual home business really is as I expected development.In mid-January 2004, our sales volume to get a breakthrough, we have a slight profit.February because of the holidays, business is down 5 percent from January.March a substantial growth of 30%, so we have a net profit 40000.I stepped up efforts to motivate my team ambition rainbow, one by one declared end of the year than doubled sales in March.I know that this is possible.Because we take the platform early on can carry the full sales 70?100 scale of lower-level agents, each agent’s sales reached 8,000 per month?10,000 yuan is not difficult.  My company recruited several girls Shanghai.I rarely had to deal with girls and Shanghai, in fact, I rarely deal and girls, only small achievements and A Yun.But by our company and the Shanghai girl communication, cooperation, after the familiar, they let the girl I used to think of Shanghai greatly changed my heart used to be a biased.At first glance they dress fashionable and able to speak fast and neat, his mind clearly not dragging its feet, is very sensitive to price, do you think they care about is money forces.Yes, ordinary people are the strangers.But exchanges for a long time, I think they always work overtime due diligence requirements of their own, their own things done; do things very responsible for the company’s property, as well as water and electricity to their homes exactly like the same; heavy our feelings have more than one girl to her boyfriend, the students paid the money, time, and even families complain.Perhaps outsiders misconceptions about them just because we do things different ways nothing, after all, one is more important is the heart and mind.  But my love life is still empty.I think now I can no longer develop a relationship, nor did it leave in my heart the moment Xiaocheng.Every day I see Xiaocheng give me that letter, that letter actually written very long.I always felt she looked after, not far from me, my heart feel very warm.Xiaocheng, your heart and mind from the fetters of the flesh, should fly faster and farther it.This time due to the small achievements of leave, then I work hard every day to go home, you will feel the loss of the sense of belonging.Sometimes I would suddenly think, I’m doing here?Where do I belong?I work hard, try to earn money, earn a lot of money so what?  This is the first time I think about it what money means to me.Before the pressure of survival and career, as well as one by one blow and I always attend to sharpen this topic has ultimate meaning.Yes ah, although I am not very rich, but I have money in the future how to do?Before China’s traditional spirit only talked about: Gentlemen love fortune, in a proper way.But if there is to how to get it?Forgive my humble school, I did not see explained in this regard.Many Chinese people have money later, extravagant life, great pomp, will depressed, to squander the money, many also lost the power of life, many people insist upon poor self-cultivation, pay the price for justice, wealth comes vanished.A few more people to donate money to charity and helping others, I want it all and also about our traditional culture.I was determined not to such a life.But why Westerners have so many rich people donate it to charity?And some of the poor they have to donate money to a charity used to it?  By chance I saw the “Matthew Bible”, which describes let me wake up.Which said that, although the rich because God-given ability and opportunity to obtain wealth, but that wealth is not the rich, but because God saw wealth due to the appreciation in the hands of the rich and let the rich who take custody, if there is needs, wealth should be returned to the owner.That’s why I am looking for.So I eagerly look at the “Bible” every day, and that the text inside to get my quiet, stability and peace of mind.In it, I found my mind in tune benevolence, compassion, humility and mission center.  I further understand that the time of ignorance before I have no faith, or faith in their own, self-righteous, arrogant and complacent.Friends, maybe you and I have different beliefs, please do not dispute the merits and demerits here.Perhaps only that everyone is only thinking very hard and heavy experience honed in order to be close to what you think is the truth.I finally found a home here, also find the answers to your questions.  I was baptized in Xujiahui church, become the master of the believers.After the baptism, I have to go sit in church every week.I know that small achievements will be an angel, a certain Lord will guide me.I used to think love is my motivation, love this word, I realized broader and more ambitious sense today.It has become my mission.  29, 2005 questions in January, I was in the vicinity of Xujiahui, on a large piece of open space Caoxi roadside parked the car came out, suddenly surprised to find Yun and her boyfriend is now her husband should it, because they are holding in her hand the size of a 2-year-old child.They apparently found me, but apparently the two sides are a bit wrong-e.I would like to say hello, smiled and said, This is your child ah?it’s beautiful!We look harmonious atmosphere between the.Conversation I learned that they were married by the end of 2001, with the end of 2002 adorable daughter.Their life is good, buy a car is something in mid-2004.I sincerely wish them.  They asked me, I told them, I also got their blessing.We also made an appointment the next dinner.  I used to think, if I see Yun, I will never remain calm, even I do not know how to see her.But I did it, I did not only calm, but also do usual exchange, but did absolutely sincerely wish them, understand them.Gone through so much, seen so much, I lost so much, and I get so much.Pierced the wall, my heart get more space and flying arena.  Our business is to September 2004 has been able to maintain turnover of around 700,000 a month, about 12 million profit a.10,11,12 three months we in the original basis to develop about 30 retail stores, basically to achieve about 15 million profit each month.The end of the year, plus the money in my hand shops and rental income, the company’s original capital and profits, has reached 1.8 million.I do a specialized investment firm friends that a small company like ours, as long as I can maintain the profitability of the company for 36 months, then the value of the company in general is the sum of the profits of the company 60 months.He said with a smile, calculate the value of your company four to five million now, if you maintain the current profitability.  My heart did not believe the status quo of this sentence, previous experience often illustrate this point: no one can maintain the status quo.  Only change the status quo to remain unbeaten.But after my rough count, heart doubts.Because I want to upgrade the current operating level, it is bound to re-create a larger and more rapid business platform management to a new level, but also for stricter and more systematic marketing plan I call it the rebirth plan.The rough plan I figured, asked me to invest about 300 million in funding.I was lost in thought: the risk of such a plan is too large?If it fails, I will lose all existing corporate earnings and funds on hand, as well as part of my estate.Then I should maintain the status quo, this is no good, so there are always other competitors do first, then I’ll wait and see Incident it?If I’m reborn implementation plan, complete play if 100% of the results, I 9?10 months to recover the cost, then the company should also have greater development.If you play 70% of the effect, I 15?18 months to recover the cost.If you play less than 50% effect, it is a failure.  But this kind of thing has to struggle into my blood, into my genes.I really can not bear to do nothing and lose the chance to become the top few in their field.Mainly for small achievements, for me, for all my friends and family, and my staff, I decided to let go of a Bo.I bought real estate (now prices, and a 1.5 million) and cars made two mortgage loans 120 million in funding, so I have money in the hands of the three million.  2004 at 23 o’clock on December 21, I finally completed the planned 170,000-word report a detailed plan of rebirth.I did not forget this day, I have to finish the report on this day.  From the middle of the night I drove down the main road, I used to shop and small achievements III site here she is in love with me, I am also here to fall in love with her.Everything here has been past and present Phoebe, never see a temporary room side of the road, all the wide streets and sidewalks, who would no longer care about what happened here in the.I stopped the car, got out relying car Lighting a cigarette.Looking at the horizon half full moon, I clearly saw the smiling face of Yan Yan Xiaocheng.I smiled, but his face had filled with tears streaming.  Friends, I struggle in the years Shanghai’s over yet?No, I knew, everything has just begun!  30, experience (finale) Here is my own perception and my experience, the right for reference: 1, life is the life of the investment and income.If you have money, you invest money; if you do not have money, but have the experience and ability, experience and ability to put on; if you have neither the money nor the experience and ability, but you have passion, hard work and effort put into it enthusiasm, hard work and effort.If you have neither the money nor the experience and ability, even enthusiasm, hard work and effort did not, I would not even think about that.  2, is more important than making money is to find your own money power; 3, more important than money is time, time is more important than timing, timing is more important than you should seize the opportunity of determination, motivation and preparation!  4, do not aim too high, opportunities are generally hidden in obscure corner you see; 5, willing to invest; 6, decide what action to be fast; 7, always ready resources as far as possible, ready to seize the opportunity, to be fast!  8, treat people with sincerity, to people with good.Sometimes, the opportunity is given by others; 9, to others looking for a little more than others (this is my copy of Li Ka-shing, I really like); 10, money has a general rule: do, do quickly, brains changing the pattern to do, is do not follow other people to do the same.  11, rational planning of the money the day after, and you will go farther; 12, have faith, principled, loving

Abba Valley.In fact, I love you Groundhog Day Winners

Abba Valley.In fact, I love the first time you see a word in the “Reader”, her father’s past life lover.So if you were reincarnated I want to be your daughter.This is the life I promise.Dear Abba Valley: I rarely call your father, I am really very little.Most of my photos are calling you boss or Abba Valley.A few days ago you promised me to accompany me to the future will be the Pamirs, make me laugh for a long time.About you, the two of us is the enemy.I had the knife means that you, not self-willed.I remember because the sheep run quickly led me to now running speed quickly.This will have the advantage every time you hit me after him, I ran a considerable speed in front of you always fail to recover in the back.It may only be limited to my childhood.In my eyes you are my God, you only junior high school when I was on the third day of every time I can not stand those damn math problems.Will you help me understand, though you will not solve the equation, but it will help me row equation.After high school, I go home once two weeks.You always pick me, one to the regiment, no matter how many people you’ll pick up my two turns.I was holding you, just like in the palm of your hand, like.I remember when I first learned to dance, you teach.I remember that we will always explore a lot of problems, because as we like.There are three people in this world call me baby, you, grandmother Valley, as well as sister.I know you are the only person in the world will not leave me.Your mother often quarreled, 19-year-old mother called me the night before, I hear you loud I’ve been crying at the other end.I called you on the phone, I cried and said I want you home.You say you can heartless mother, but you could not bear I cried and begged you.Sometimes think about it, I am very happy to have you.But I never said I love you for you.Every man who came to play, you drink to accompany them, but let me accompany them to drink more.On the third year, you know I feel bad.You always give me a message, but never punctuation, harm to myself every time I punctuate.But you will always be a touch of that many unfortunate people than I am, so I’m in a good state of mind to meet the college entrance examination.I tell you baby boys in our class I call him uncle, he always bully me.You smiled and said to me, you tell him next time he went to school bully you and me to pack him.Groundhog Day Winners And you still swagger said to me, you have to tell him your dad fight very powerful.You know I like the rain, the family hung his poster.Every one has heard from him you would say, your boyfriend came out of the baby Come.College, I alone in this.Groundhog Day Winners And you’re always afraid I do not take care of myself, so I feel bad for a person to get out.Tell you money, you give me.That day, you say baby I missed you.After you have finished with the phone kiss me.I find that you have no use for a long time your beard slag me.Your 40th birthday that year, I saved money to buy all of them for a long time charging razor.You took the box packaging, a luxury that I.But then my mother can tell you it baby.We are friends, you will see the boys and girls turned me then comment.Occasionally we have to discuss, and I’ve seen the bad guys is how to excel.You know I like Wu Dengyun, so you say you come with me to my home Pamirs.While you and I were born from my mother began to quarrel, fight.But one thing is the same as you, you love me.I asked you, I am your daughter you?You say which parents do not love their children.You give me growing sense, I always know.Finally, I said to myself Abba Valley, in fact, I really love you.Related Links:

A Dream Train of Remembrance

The Dream Train of Remembrance – Commemorating the First of the Fourth Anniversary Because it was a weekend, friends had dinner and slept well last night. The liver and heart that used to be unwell were no longer feeling strange, and they woke up occasionally in the middle of the night and were also safe.. In the gloom, the wife got up and heard her answer the phone again, probably at 7: 00 a.m.. She came over, she pushed the door and came in, but I was about unusual, not good. Sure enough, she woke me up and cried out, ” Xu, Xu, the Big Four are old.”. I sat up at once: ” Don’t panic. What’s the matter, slowly say. Fifty days ago, my wife said, isn’t your unit a tomb-sweeping day holiday, let’s go to Shanghai. I said what to do there? Because of the tomb-sweeping day in previous years, we mostly went to the countryside for a outing and also visited the western jade emperor ridge cemetery to sweep the mother’s grave.. In the rainy season, fresh soil game floats away in the same fresh wind, making people seem to have returned to their childhood and hometown. If it is a sunny day in Yuan Ye full of colourful rape and yellow flowers, it will make people laugh. But I don’t know why, this year, my wife wants Shanghai. Well, if I go to Shanghai, my fourth uncle who lives in Shanghai is not at home. I should only accompany you to the old place..     It is said to be the old place because the big four have settled in Shanghai for nearly 40 years. When I was young, I thought of studying abroad and went to Shanghai alone to find the big four who worked in Wujiaochang Changhai Hospital. When I was a child, I often led and rescued my big four from the cesspit after raining.. Forty years later, I went to see him. It was the first time I saw him. I stood in front of him and his prescription immediately fell to the ground. On the way home together, I knew that he had been wiping tears while riding in front, because the wind in the south was warm and not bitter. He held the car in one hand and held the wind in the other.     Later, when we got married, had children, celebrated the day, and even my heart was unhappy, we would come to him.. Fu had distant relatives in the mountains, and when he had a fortune of ten million yuan, he warned his hometown people not to go to Shanghai or meet him when he arrived.. I am the exception. My Big Four.     Today, my wife proposed to go to Shanghai, but she has not been there for many years.. But I didn’t think that the tomb-sweeping day would become a perpetual tactic.. I still remember clearly that he came down from the upstairs and I sprinted to embrace him. Remember when we parted, he was repeatedly urged by me to go upstairs and look back.     My Big Four. On that day, we went to the fair together, came back together and talked all the way. On that day, we tasted six or seven kinds of spirits and talked for forty years. On that day, we ate from noon until nearly seven o’clock in the evening. On that day, for fear of causing more trouble to our family, we had already booked a room outside and did not stay at home.. On that day, he reluctantly gave up. My big four, I remember clearly, when we parted, you looked back when I repeatedly urged you to go upstairs.. My Big Four.     I didn’t think of it. That difference turned out to be a perpetual tactic.     When I heard the news, I hurriedly got through to my eldest brother’s phone and went to the three big families to discuss how to deal with the matter. On the way, he learned that after dinner yesterday, he went out for a walk, suffered a heart attack and fell to the side of the road.. Passers – by helped him to rescue him in the long sea. He died at about midnight this morning.. According to local rules, a memorial service will be held next Tuesday. According to peers in my hometown, the funeral should be held as soon as possible when the wedding is late.. So we discussed taking a bus to Zhengzhou as soon as possible and then from Zheng to Shanghai. Booking tickets online by second brother’s daughter Xiaoya.     After deliberation, I hurried home to discuss with my wife, prepare more money and take 10,000 yuan. If Yudi in Beijing does not arrive, or if military affairs are present, I will pay for him.. At about 1: 00 p.m., eldest brother and second brother took a taxi and hurried to the east railway station.     The road was silent, as if I were the only one: ” The walk of the Big Four is a great loss to our family.”! Well, just as an important person is to the country, his departure is a great loss to our family.. In the meantime, I didn’t take into account my personal feelings.     The train in the distance, surging with huge and sharp breath, has already entered the station and everyone got on the bus in order. However, between trance, it seems that not a few brothers boarded the train, as if they boarded the bullet train. I was the only one who boarded the bullet train, not my body, but my soul..     2 Shanghai, 789 near Wujiaochang, Yingkou Road. This is a taxi coming out of the high-speed railway and Hongkou Airport. Half an hour’s journey, the buildings beside the viaduct, if bright and distant, are speeding by, and it is the way near midnight.. I didn’t expect it, or I don’t know who sent the wrong message. The four largest mourning halls are not in the funeral parlor. The funeral parlor has only his body. The mourning hall is located at home..     It was midnight and scurrying downstairs, the smell of candle fire in the hall floated out from the door of the open building. Later, cousin Hui, the fourth eldest son, said that the door should be opened, which is an old Shanghai rule. This is also the soul return of the central plains region? Or do you want to go home and have a look at the Big Four?     At midnight, only the hall of four people was left. Once upon a time, the balcony rang through the crack of the door, saying that the air was passing through the hall, but who was complaining and complaining?? Four big do you have anything to explain, can you say it to me.    A few people slept on the sofa, and I woke up several times after heavy sleep. After the first hour, he fell asleep, only being awakened twice by the sound of the great sad mantra of the undead, the sound of the great sad mantra of the tape recorder, and the sound of his cousin’s voice.. Also seems to have a dream, but deep, vaguely is the big four hall and his voice, a head of sweat woke up and knew he was in Shanghai and was in the hall.     When I woke up three hours later, it was more than six o’clock. Just four Niang had got up and got down from upstairs. I stood on the steps and watched her talking to my cousin.. Then, look for gaps and shout, ” Four Niangs.”! ‘ then go up and hug gently. She murmured, ” Xiao Xu met, met.”. She said that I gave wedding greetings to Hui Di 50 days ago, and at the same time, I looked forward to the last meeting of the Big Four, the last farewell.     Nowadays, people go to the building empty and want to take a look at his study more often. However, when I heard about the family affairs of Siniang and her cousin, I always felt wrong. I changed my shoes and walked out into the dense bush, walking in the bushes outside the house. Two mosquitoes raided me and were killed on my bare arms and stained with a few stars of my own blood.. I gently brushed away the bodies of the forest mosquito, the shattered bodies.     Back in the house, everyone was having breakfast. Four Niangs purposely asked me to sit beside her. I only said how my wife reported the bad news yesterday morning and how it was heart – pounding. I said calmly. In addition, I only had a bowl of porridge, and then I left the vegetarian meal and went to the balcony outside the hall to see the morning in the corner of Shanghai..     The sky was overcast and the dew or the water droplets left by the night rain fell gently and coldly between the branches and leaves that were stacked on top of each other..     Third, it should be from the disadvantage of a river bank to the southwest, through it and reach a village. I began to find out how far it is to borrow a bicycle from a family in the village in order to catch time.. There is no adult in the farm, a child who is at ease, a child who can’t remember his appearance, followed me. My bike took him across the street in the village and headed south, crossing an ancient road probably full of clean water pits, and came to the village..     This village does not have a specific appearance. I don’t know whether there is wind. There must be no rain or snow. The streets are deserted.. At that time, three people came out of his home. I asked him where he was, and he was in the house.. I used to, he was in the house, his thin face and low stature.     I was a little confused and did not know how to come out of the house with him. It turned out that the three members of the family were selling the tribute. He said, ” Don’t listen to them. What’s the use of a wick of incense?”? I don’t believe that. Why should I burn incense? Our family is clean and white, like a gently flowing river, believing in a wick of incense, does it not lead to customs?? Then, he said, ” The incense sticks they recommended are purely for selling money and for 2,000 yuan, I will give you money if you want.”. ‘ I hurriedly refuse.     I don’t know why, he said these words and went into the house himself. I looked at his residence, which is a three-story building with a high front and a low back, followed by two stories, and a quiet village house, arranged in an orderly way around, without wind, rain or snow.. The front door of the house faces east. I do not know whether there is a plaque for’ purple gas coming from the east’, but the door is closed and still closed. The two trees in front of the house are extremely tall and can’t see the branches. There are only some rattan leaves winding up sparsely..     I don’t know why, I detoured to the west of the house where a wall was missing and I looked at it and went to the south of the house. It was probably the Westinghouse in the main house with another south gate. I stole it and saw that there was a room in the door, a few tables in the room and a few old people there, as if they were nursing homes for the elderly and so on.. Several old men sat on the bed and looked at me coldly. A few old people.     I may have to go. He sent me. I said I probably mistook one for another. I didn’t say who you are. You don’t have the surname Cao, do you?. He said calmly that he did not. Then, I didn’t follow my children. My children and I rode back again, crossed several ancient roads full of clean water, returned to the village, and returned to their bicycles, thinking that there was still a long way to go in the north..     After such a long journey, when will I return to my hometown?? But in the midst of this doubt, I woke up suddenly in a dream and recalled that the person who said he was not surnamed Cao was my top four? So, in the green glow of the morning, my tears began to flow down. I checked the date, Saturday, June 8, and 21 days ago, Cao Guisheng, my fourth uncle and fourth uncle, passed away 21 days ago..     What is this for? On the train of my life.

If you are my grass

I smile in the dust, enjoy the warm, forget the fleeting Jinxi is what year.A decision moment, was actually a different outcome.As time rushing water, like the drip away, absently walking in muddy dirt road, people around come and go, they appeared, they hurried away, as if I was a truth in the church, who will not accompany you to the end – they are passing.    After all, it is to leave.    Watching the street tough grass, perhaps no one concerned about their existence, even trample the dignity of the human being.And finally immersed in the dust, if I can, I look back to you again and again, back to the frivolous rain tenderness you like the wind, and quietly to see through time.    I held a trace of rain, irrigation will you, will you raise narcissistic every day, either you soaring on the dirt roads.Frost sleeping, with your language fragrant, with the all my love to suck away all worldly point of view, by the sun to you every inch of nutritional supplements, left behind a heart of gold, I saw you kneeling lying.I exhausting, for you I, horizon, suddenly see your tears, as if Buddha-like instant solidification, like a poetic picture branded in my heart.I used to imprison all and vision, willing engraved blood pool for your Liuchang, I can not promise under oath, only under a pen with a bleeding heart seal your forced smile, I shuttle in space, the displaced season , did not dare to forget you wait for me at the other end of time.    Stack can not afford to miss the shutter doors, hand-held pole moral, after years of profligacy crazy Britain, love long road, mixed with you I take the wrong chord Flanagan.You to fill with tears met, I already forget that you are my heart that blades of grass, but also how to pull pull can not afford to own the whole world in the rain, just to be able to grow on me after you piece of dirt along the roadsides.My mind with the greatest in the decibel cry, but you turn a blind eye.Too noisy world, reality is so little, express delivery time is always so far away off his legs, but also not to miss the end of.Bowl, not so much crazy ruthless pier residual soul sigh.

Staring at your back

It is like to walk in your back, your back just to gaze.The warm wind, gently glide your hair, long hair fluttering brought up, my heart flows ignorant of happiness.    April is the spring season is also the time Acacia.That day you walked silently beside me, mouth smile always remain in the eyes, the sweet slowly overflow from the corner.You are willing to stay for me, my thoughts ever since rely.You gently bouncing pace, willowy exudes from behind you, involved with my eyes, reluctant to part with your steps.    Go behind your back, in order to enjoy the breeze light swing, that purple skirt swaying lightly instant style overflow of the heart, is to look at your weak want to hold the feeling of the wind in the attack and watch you smile at the moment, eclipsed spring moment, my heart happy quietly out of the wind.So okay?Staring at your back, just to leave your memories in the shadows, in the absence of the fall can be thin aftertaste.    April Rose’s full of gardens, flowers leaning against the front of your Fang-shiny red flowers, let your charming rose gently peeling shy, shy among that cluster slowly open.I gently hold your hand, my heart handle the situation fixed spread from the palm of your hand, you can understand I’m happy at the moment it.The original taste of love so sweet, as sweet brown southern, Qinru Heart, circulation of the body, the heart of the dumb overflow from the eyes, the way to love.    Staring at your back, dancing in the botanical gardens, are you happy.    Take a boat boat, light ubiquitous in East Lake Park Lake.Willow Dangzhuo painted green ripples in the water, Zhang Qing Dutch Sentimental smile, envious hot I’m proud.Rowing oars, standing on the bow looking at you, back in daylight unbridled deeply moved, faintly visible graceful slender legs straight, let me faint beauty between vertigo.You looked back at me, I heard scoff “fool, to see what it?”Rude pull off your hand, hold you in my arms, I look in your eyes that fanatical eyes, you Weibi eyes, whispering, asked:” What do you want?”Lips instantly intertwined, light your wonderful body trembling slightly, his hands between my neck Languo.After hurried kiss, I gently ask you: “Are you happy?”April came, but you gotta go.After breakfast, transfer you go, I watch your back far into the station, you insisted I accompany you into together, I do not want to, I’m afraid the separation of sad, though you just leave dozens of days, cough, think later I want a man two months spent worrying about the kind of thoughts I am afraid that a time alone, can not see your back I’ll be lonely.    So okay, you walk alone, I leave you back, at night, when lonely, can be painted memories of your back, you want to diffuse way, so good?    Watch your back boarded the car, I was hidden in the corner, wiping his eyes that tear.    All the way, I will always think of you.    Through the Botanical Garden, to see you back among the flowers dancing, not peach Xie, already full of roses.


A few days ago, was found opened a gorgeous little yellow flowers on land east corner of the yard, my eyes suddenly light up, because in the countryside, the fields of canola flower is removed, it is difficult to see bloom in April.These two days, inadvertently discovered the flower beds in the school also opened twelve such a small yellow flower, so I had to stop and simply enjoy it.    Rather, it is a kind of wild flowers, I could not utter its name, colleagues will say it is a flowering weed, called Bubu Ding, the old man said with its leaves soaked in water to drink to cure high blood pressure.Really, country fields, the ditch grow grass was actually carefully calculate a variety of herbs, but they are weeds growing out of their own, do not need to farm the farmer time and effort, carefully cultivated, we view it is gone, even frightened fight the nutrients of wheat, much less than its long time, and it will mercilessly pulled.    I began to pity those weeds from the same fate and the Bubu Ding.Some teachers fear that students readily naughty or unplug it.    It so happened, one day, my son to wear a cycle high school play, saw pit slope south of the village head of sporadic drove many Bubu Ding flowers, there are several flower even in the open next to the garbage heap.High slope there are many plastic bags, disposable chopsticks, disposable lunch boxes, but still did not stop these lovely flowers open in a dirty environment this soil, poor in texture, they open too obscure, bloom bright, bright, even though many people do not notice it’s there.    I suddenly thought, such a beautiful little yellow flowers, if you put them together, so that they open on the lawn of the town square, it is more the United States?    Bubu Ding made me think of those who have been forgotten teacher poor students and their teacher in a classroom seating arrangements are not people pay attention to the corner, even though their subject teachers “sideline”, but they still continue to silently efforts, they there have been advances have flash light, but because of forgotten, it was not found.I believe that many teachers have heard such a story: a psychologist came to a school, in a classroom, several students pointed out that these students are promising, promising students, so the teacher began to pay more attention to these students can imagine, the results of all students admitted to a prestigious university.These students actually just random psychologists point out.Visible, the teacher’s attention plays an important role in how a little child is growing!If we give those poor students in the preparation of his heart to leave a position, if we pay more attention to the so-called poor students, their inclusion in a good student, I believe they will be like those “rare flower” bloom wonderful!    Today, I checked the Internet a bit, we were called Bubu Ding grass has a very nice and original poetic name, it is called dandelion, is a vibrant yellow flowers, beautiful words as “Everlasting Love” .

A pool of water feelings

Spring has come, the ablation of snow quietly quietly, slowly accumulate at the low, gurgling from silent to sound, bit by bit to the converging flow.Life as a pool of water, let each of us has a crystal clear water, energy and water, the water of life!In the dry season they began jumping Pentium creek, he awakened the dormant trees, birds and insects.Trees are still worried about whether cold really been away, quietly stuck his numerous small green bud to look around, the body still shook birds and insects are howling, unsteadily silent silent, but has been slowly restored vitality, starting with sweet chirping, Yuchi fluttering sound of the silent trees suddenly bustle.Let’s open the embankment of the soul, into streams Pentium into the sea.Maybe we will become cloudy, maybe we hit the reef will be black and blue, but our lives will be surging, become an integral part of the sea.Among the mighty once again become clear, become broad and becomes wide boundless.    Life as a pool of water, needs to flow.Water can penetrate in the growth of every life, and then into a pool of water, give their lives again and again dream experience again and again surprise trip.Again and again, their lives will become part of the things in the world, always going.Stop the flow convergence, the team has grown, we work side by side regardless of whether the forward collision.An inattentive untenable, “Wow,” about the fall in the deep pools below the rock, perhaps anxious to run want to take a rest, obediently integrated into one, and nothing of the sound.Beech tree next to the lake have met with clear water, not quiet, they have the roots from the soil quietly reached into the water, sucking the sweet juice, water, nourish the lush greenery.In the sunshine, their lives will be further enhanced, as they may be rising clouds in the sky, fly freely in the sky, can be turned into rain, to dry land with green hope.    We carefree childhood, a brilliant smile, life is like a crystal-clear, without any bitter content.Rain in the mountains will come from time to time, whether it is heavy rain or drizzle, trees are always like body shook themselves in the rain.Moist fog sun tear layer, frantic race in the mountains prowl driven chill residue, slowly accumulating ablated in the trees, stone walls, and the humus layer of snow, it is frozen in the following It has been turned into a bright red patches of deciduous dark.Hidden under leaves little beetle still sleeping, I knew it, spring again.From spring to autumn, small streams trickling their way through the smooth pebbles gap, import lake gently, quietly squeeze out some of the earlier of lingering on the inside of the residence, like most beauty sleep with a sweet smile.With blowing shells that break the skin and touching face, tempting to want to get close to people.Life as a pool of water, there is no contamination at the source.    For the life of me sometimes like a raging sea, any heart in waves ups and downs of love, sometimes also deemed to fall behind boats sailing on the river, but after all, life is like calm rainy youthful.Pool Buyanbuyu tree, carrying little water falling from the tip, with an open heart and purifies receiving, always a pool of blue.Life as a pool of water, such as the surging water when we are young, do not want to subject to any outside interference, do not want the presence of the embankment, I do not want to have blocked water flow.We are eager to stop the flow of youth like water, flowing to its own direction, out of the arms of their parents, out of their own piece of the sea.Flow into his world of freedom to find their own life, to find the joy of life, the search for life in the pursuit of dreams, to pursue a career, life, find true love, flow together, spend a lifetime.Every morning, we the Hong clear water the tree next to the dresser who set the stage, they have to stretch the body, usually in the mirror of the water put the first Nongzi, showing their elegant, clear water and tree shadows side by side.When the sun is shining them after each other, provided with a quiet cool to each other.    Regardless of living in a secluded corner of the living or the like bustling marketplace, whether it is almost a full house or wants to come, have heart sank Things.Life as a pool of water, it will not flow rancid.After a fight against all kinds of setbacks, some people lost their dreams and courage, and have lost the passion and the pursuit of youth for the future.Mountain floated a cool breeze blowing on the open valley and lake, the lake shining in the deep blue light.Small boat alone pierced the quiet lake forward.Life as a pool of water, once thought of the world as we are clear, then plunge, only to find that wherever our imagination is not the same.Sometimes we are still able to maintain a pool of water feelings, although there are a lot of pain and confusion, but still retains a noble.Early in the morning, gave birth to the long puddles of several strains of large leaves of woody no longer wait any longer, she spits out a slender flower.Brilliant flowers open, the petals have condensed some glistening dew in the morning sun shine, reflects the light fantastic.After a few days after flowering, the petals are no longer tender lips, a piece of falling down helplessly, silently floating in the water, their last beautiful glow.